Working on the house has reminded me of the things that we wanted to do before having kids. Couples often come up with a before-children to-do list that looks something like this:
Our list looked like that for the first few years of marriage. We were afraid of having an "oops." While my husband was in law school, we had to live off of my income. A baby just would not fit into that life. As graduation approached, we realized that most of our "Before Kids" items portrayed kids as a burden or an inconvenience. That seemed backward to us. The Bible talks about children as a blessing. Why would we want to try to prevent a blessing from the Lord? We did not have all our ducks in a row, but realized they never will be.
So, we decided to leave our family planning in the Lord's hands rather than our own. Surprisingly, His plan was not to "burden" us with children. Instead, He has told us to wait. We have moved from being nervously open to children in His timing to pleading for Him to bring them soon.
Working on the house has reminded me of the list, the things that we wanted to do before having kids. We have done them. Each item has been checked off.
I would rather have kids than have these items completed. Period. Even if the kids distracted me from painting. However, God seems to have given us what we thought we wanted. Even after we wanted something else instead.
We do not have kids right now. I wish that statement was false, but it isn't. We have to decide what to focus on: good or bad, blessings or sorrows, hope or disappointment. May we choose well.
Lord, help us choose to be thankful. May we recognize that You are good, and that Your plan is perfect. Give us joy in the present and hope for the future. Amen.
Isn't it crazy we think we have it all planned out and then God pretty much tells us it's not our plans it's his. My plan was not wanting to be 34 and just having our first child and here I am childless at 35. I laugh thinking about that now, how I thought I had made those plans. You are in my prayers girl for whatever God has in store for you!
ReplyDeleteThanks for the prayers, Amie. Sometimes, I wish we knew the whole plan. However, knowing the future would make enjoying the present impossible. Good thing God has a perfect plan.
DeleteSo thankful that Gods plans are so different than ours - His ways and thoughts are higher - even though it's so hard to understand sometimes, glad that He is in control and not me! Love that last image you shared!
ReplyDeleteMe too, Caroline. His plan is much better than mine could ever be.
DeleteI like your plan. I wish I had had a plan before I got pregnant for the first time.
ReplyDeleteI wish that we wouldn't have had such a strict plan. :) I'm sure your little one is a blessing.
DeleteOh I just loved this post. Keep believing and trusting in Him. I know that He will give you the desires of your heart because that is what His word says. I am praying for you and your husband right now that soon you will be called "mommy".
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Thanks, Elisha. That will be a sweet day. :)
DeleteThank you for sharing. I can relate to this so much.
ReplyDeleteI'm sorry that you can relate, but it is nice that others can understand.
DeleteThe contentment lesson is so hard to learn... I'll be learning it for the rest of my life. But I try, and I ask God to help me and bless my efforts. He knows what I need more than I do.
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