Wednesday, September 25, 2013

What is my purpose in this phase? Our desire has been for me to stay at home with kids. As a result, I have never pursued a “career.” Now that kids aren’t coming, what am I supposed to do with myself? The demands of full time employment seemed to make our chances of conceiving even lower, so we have agreed that I will stay home at least part of the time.

I am learning that part time jobs in “my field” (if I have one) are hard to come by. The job search is exhausting, but I’m trying not to stress. After all, stress (and everything else) can contribute to infertility.

My desire is to volunteer with a ministry, but I have put that on hold until I have a job.

So, what is my purpose right now?

Tuesday, September 10, 2013

A Prayer for Gratitude

Dear Lord,

Thank you for blessing me with a husband who loves You and me and will talk about both. Thank You for our conversation about gratitude this morning. May we be constantly praising You for the blessings we have received, not whining about the ones we want. The main area of desire that can turn into bitterness is the area of children.

We spent time with a very young couple who has been married only a few months. They got pregnant accidentally after one week of marriage. They were hoping to wait five years before having kids. We are happy for them, but our natural response is "Of course they're pregnant. Everyone around us gets pregnant by looking at each other. We can't for anything."

We reminded ourselves today that we all have our different set of blessings. They wanted the blessing of five years of marriage before kids, but they're getting a child. We want a child, but got the "blessing" of five years of marriage without kids.

Choosing gratitude in all circumstances is important, but difficult. Please help us to rejoice always, pray without ceasing, and give thanks.

In Jesus' Name,