Waiting and Blog Silence

From the recent blog silence, you can accurately conclude two things:

1. I have been busy.
2. Nothing new is happening in infertility land.

Last weekend, we traveled north for a wedding and to visit family. Usually, we allow at least a week for these trips, but this one was a quick four days. Don't worry, we managed to cram ten days of activities into the four days. Now, we are home, sick, and tired. On the day we traveled home, my poor husband was up from 5:45 a.m. to 3:30 a.m. One of our flights was delayed, so the trek from the airport stretched into the wee (or brutal) hours of the morning. We may not be old, but we are definitely too old to stay up until 3:30 a.m.

While settling back into normal life, I am getting impatient to see if the Clomid worked. Our schedule this weekend was crazy enough to throw any person's body off, but I'm hoping that it did not make round one pointless.

Regardless of what we find out, God is good. He is in control. Scheduling chaos and lack of sleep will not surprise Him. Whatever we walk through is for our good and His glory.

And again, we wait...

Some Days, My Life Doesn't Revolve Around Infertility

In the infertility department, we are in a waiting phase. Some people call it the two week wait. I will spare you the details, but just know that there is nothing we can do at this point. In a few weeks, we will know if the first round of Clomid was successful. Until then, all I can do is take prenatal vitamins (just in case) and take care of myself. This time, the waiting phase is just what we needed to forget about infertility. 

Don't worry, we aren't bored. On the contrary, in fact. We started house shopping and just put an offer in on a house. Throughout our six years of marriage, we have rented. Right now, our apartment is too small to comfortably host people. We had been looking for houses to rent, but buying seems to be much more reasonable in our area. So, we jumped into the first-time homebuyer process with both feet. It's a little scary to think of putting so much money in one place, but we are excited, too. 

Do any of you have home-buying tips to share? 

If Only There Was an App for That

If I want to get somewhere, I enter the destination into the map app on my phone. The handy app will then show me the fastest routes available and approximately how long each route would take. I can choose an alternate if desired, but the app will automatically send me on the fastest route otherwise.

Wouldn't it be nice to plug a life goal into an app and have the route options presented to us? At this phase, I would be looking for the best routes to having children. With the destination plugged in, I could evaluate the options and pick one.

Unfortunately, there's no app for that. So, we are left trekking various avenues trying to choose the best next step. Infertility treatments might be a dead end, but we won't know unless we try. Adoption might be the longest route, but it might be the only one that actually reaches the destination. Foster care to adoption might be the fastest and least expensive route, but it also has the highest possibility of long-term struggles. I could honestly get excited about any of the routes, but I wish the best one was obvious. If only there was an app for that.

Thankfully, God instituted this wonderful thing called marriage. My husband is somewhat (or WAY) better than I am at making decisions. I can put myself through all the confusion of internet "research" and get overwhelmed with all the options. When I blurt out all the chaos to him, he usually brings clarity to the situation. Then we can agree on a next step.

We are currently trying the fertility treatment route. At this point, both of us are hopeful that it will take us to the destination. So, we travel on.